Deborah Perry
"stories beyond words"
"Falling In Self"
Creation Story - 2017
Having set myself the intention of creating a painting for 2017, I had the idea that I wanted to paint a woman diving for something at the bottom of a pool. One week later, the painting was finished. Normally my paintings take me the whole of the Summer to create but once I started this one, there was no stopping until it was finished. I've never created a painting so fast!
After finishing the painting, I found myself diving with her whilst in an altered state just before sleep. I'm not a very confident swimmer and I actually have a fear of deep water, so it was quite odd for me to feel so relaxed with the image. It was when I listened to a love story about "Adam and Isis" from the Crimson Circle about a week later, that I realised that the Goddess in my painting was Isis. This painting gives me great peace. I often stand in front of it when I get up in a morning and just before I go to bed. I take a deep breath and I feel nourished and rejuvenated by its simplicity.
Special symbols - the Goddess, water, rose
Poetry
And so it begins
My quiet descent
Into unchartered depths of Self
Worldly life drowned by silence
As I free fall from the mind
No breath
No time.
My heart opens
To a conscious presence
Pulling me under
Deeper I go, just awareness
Of sinking and beating
No thoughts
No feeling.
Only senses long lost
Play at such depths
As I exhale and decompress
Flooding my body with stillness
Such peace in pours
No effort
No more.
And so I'm drowning
In my love
Failure, pain, fear released
Wounds healed by grace
Shame unrepressed
No sorrow
No regrets
My return to Source
My journeys end
Now complete, fulfilled
With all that I AM
And were and ever shall be,
A drop and a tide
Of eternity.
My shore lines ebb
Beyond the cosmos
As I lap the beaches
Of creation
I am life's breath
I exist
No death
The heart of All Things
Sings and rings
For you and yours
And All.
Such purity of joy abounds
For my true love, my Self
I've found.
Gushing, flowing,
My unconditional love
From oceans to streams
Bringing life new radiance
So none can refute
The fruit of the rose
A love absolute.
Deborah Perry